Live.Laugh.Love

day 4 wo you

Monday, September 8

today seems like a short day. i woke up late, still feeling fatigue from my draggy flight and sore eyes oopps. and probably gg to bath and sleep soon as i have an extremely early flight the next day. today is mid autumn festival. first time in a long time, i totally feel the absence of my love one. every year wo fail, he will buy moon cakes for me and my family, not forgetting to just get my fav type of moon cake. and he will come find me, chit chat under my hse even though he will have work the next day.

today, as i stalked his whatapps's last seen, i figured that he is having night flying. i will probably have slept by the time he appear 'online' again? i feel the distance bet us get long each other. i told james kenna what happened bet us, he said the chances is not high. he said maybe i can use tt tiny weeny chance bet us to salvage things again, i certainly hope tt will be the case.

i wanted to register for the hello kitty run today. i camped for it and the website is so hanged that i couldn't manage to register. by evening, i suddenly realised in actual fact i couldn't make it for the run. it is in 1st nov and i only touch down night time on 1st nov, sigh. while i was camping on my com for the kitty run at noon, i was stalking at his fb last seen, hoping to see him online. cos, if he is online, it kinda means that he was camping for it at his workplace if his work schedule allows him to? hmm well, but he didn't appear online at all.

from last night, i kept hoping he will ask me abt the kitty run. ever since last night, every what apps msg i received, every call i received, every fb notications, every email and even missed calls i have. i was hoping he contacted me somehow. or tell me he has booked the run tgt. but he didn't. i am so scared. every day i kenna live in fear, every day i am scared. i scared as time passed, he will be so comfortable wo me. and realised he is happier wo me. please. can't you just give us a chance?

-Sign Off @ 7:48 PM :)